>2023, joined some tier 3 engg clg bcz no other option

thought maybe could make it if grind hard enough

>fate said no

>dad falls sick, financial conditions goes down

>had to dropout, felt like shit but had no choice

>stuck at home now, tier 99 village, no friends, doing online BCA scam degree

spend 4-5 hrs sitting in dad's shop pretending to help, mostly just staring into space

>free rest of the day to grind coding

grinding CRUD apps with Next.js and PostgreSQL

>mental health declining slowly, thinking about kms way more often than should

every day feels like slow death, world moving without me

>no plan except land an IT job or trying for banking/gov exams is my backup option other than roping

>Parents force me to take on the shop but life here literally kills me slowly day by day

>Might rope or either go to a mental illness ward soon if I stay here anymore (toxic household + no friends here + dehati PPL)

>no money and time for MCA or any more useless degrees

>just praying that spamming projects on resume will land me some low paying or even unpaid internship for now while my degree is going on (classes r only on weekends)

what skills do I need more anons, I'm really sorry for pasting this in an another board