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>Bullied and beaten throughout school, so much that had to change 3 schools.

>Sexually Molested for 4 years, hard molested not just touched a bit, and that was recorded.

>Brother committed suicide.

>Yelled at by baap all the time about how he wished i was never born and how i ruined his life

> Got in an accident at 11 years of age, again yelled at by baap, when i had plaster it was unsure if i would walk again, he was more worried about the money he had to spend for me, still reminds me to this day.

Did anyone had more fucked up childhood than me?

>>168308(OP)

Hoping you are not larping and attention whoring. If true, i am sorry what you had to go through. Do whatever you can to finish education and get a job and move out. Also why is your baap seething at you for being born? It is his actions that led to your birth. Anyways, let your baap not occupy too much of your mind space. Hope it gets better for you. Dont lose hope. Start doing meditation/sadhana as it acts as an internal support system. All the best.

>>168308(OP)

Larp

>>168314

>Also why is your baap seething at you for being born?

He says me being born was the reason he had to abandon his PHD and that ruined his life as he would have been a professor and now he's a nobody.

>Do whatever you can to finish education and get a job and move out.

I already got a job, just joining in about 2-3 months but its just 7.6 lpa, hopefully i can make a career in IT and leave this shithole of a place i live (Haryana) forever.

>>168318

Your baap is a nobody, with or without a PhD. Also just 7.6 LPA? You mog me yaar. I get 7 LPA. Don't worry, if you are in IT you will make 30+ LPA in a few years. Also you can walk properly now right?

>>168316

>Larp

What part is so unbelievable?

Honestly it was even more fucked up than this, i dont feel like going into details as that makes me feel like shit. My childhood becomes a blank for some reason for the years before 8, the early years, i have read that prolonged abuse makes people forget their childhood in many cases.

>>168324

>Also you can walk properly now right?

Yeah it was full recovery back then. Everyone acts like nothing ever happened, even my baap these days act like he cares about me unless hes drunk, the guy that molested me also acts like it never happened, its strange honestly

>>168324

>7 LPA

Damn. Mogged to oblivion. What a priveldged fag you are

>>168308(OP)

Hows ur relationship with ur mom

>>168330

Yaar please forgive me for asking, but your dad sexually molested you? Like is he gay? Also how did he assault you? Like touching/groping or full on penetration? Also your mom didn't step in and stop him?

>>168338

Its okay man, she is kinda dumb and does not have her own opinions, my baap can manipulate her pretty easily and shes very scared of him, she cares about me but if their is ever an argument with my baap, she is just on his side with no real opinion of hers, like he can murder 10 people and she would still try to defend him

>>168308(OP)

If he molested u as a kid, and ur an adult now, punch his face in , even in sm kind of play

>>168343

>but your dad sexually molested you?

No man, he just used to beat and yell at me all the time, two guys in the neighborhood molested me, it doesnt matter to be honest anymore, it was a long time ago, i used to think about killing him, one of them killed himself years ago, but my anger has died and i dont really see a point anymore

>>168350

Okay. All I can say is just move on yaar. A lot of people say suffering builds character and God gives you hardships to teach you something. That is bullshit. Anyways, don't keep thinking about the past and victimising yourself. That is of no use. Move forward and improve your life. And also, when you have kids, don't repeat whatever your parents did. A lot of behaviours learnt by you from your parents can be subconsciously repeated. Perform all actions consciously.

i was molested too, like sort of forced to touch someone's penis who tried to act as a friend in disguise but i was able to save myself without doing anything but this triggered my anti-social behavior badly and i had very bad anxiety for 3 months, back then i was in 10th grade. i still wish i could kill him, tbh i will kill him someday especially before i see life is over pretty much.

>>168330

>i dont feel like going into details as that makes me feel like shit. My childhood becomes a blank for some reason for the years before 8, the early years,

pretty much same, i just wish i could kill those i hate. i never thought about molestation thing that happened in 10th grade for long now but today i saw your thread and it triggered something in me again otherwise, i had completely forgotten it.

>>168347

do this, atleast make him feel 10 times worse. this world only listens to violence and dominance.

>>168350

>anan was molested

>his brother did the needful

>anans molester also did the needfuls

Fuck. It maybe serious now

why did your brother rope?

>>168355

I am moving on anon, hopefully i never come back here, i hate this place so much.

>>168373

I used to think this a lot, i wanted to kill him so bad, but now i see hes married, he has a kid, his mother is sick, i dont know how i feel anymore man, i just wish he does not do to his kid what he did to me.

>>168389

Not my proper brother, but my tau's son, he was my only friend, he used to be pretty depressed, he was just like me, his family is also a bit fucked up, this entire family tree is full of psycopaths, i am not entirely sure why he did it, i was young back then about 14 iirc, i am 22 now

>>168308(OP)

Kitna jhut bolega pajeet

>>168308(OP)

larp, mods kill this attention whore

>>168318

lmao ur baap is such a loser just like u, shouldnt have raped a pajeeta if he didnt want a pajeet son

>>168308(OP)

Rona agaya ye sab parkar🤧😢😭😭😭😭

Tum sada sukhi raho pyare. Sab thik ho jayega